The snuggie. Plain and simple. Blankets don't need sleeves. 


On a side note, I need a dad who would have finished filling out his portion of the FAFSA form so that I could go to school next semester. Now, there's a good chance I'll get to be a college drop out. Fuck yeah. 

Just paid off all my medical bills, nearly five hundred dollars and am now dirt poor again. Thankfully, I wrote to my Uncle yesterday and he should be sending me some money within a few weeks, that is, if nothing goes wrong. 
We're moving to Westminster at the end of April which is reasonably exciting, though admittedly stressful, since that's another financial drain, but in truth it should end up saving us money in the long run. 
Picked out my ideal schedule for next semester: Counseling theories, Motivation, Sociology of Education, Sociology of Deviance, and then Bio. I'd do all five of them back to back which sounds stressful but is honestly better for me. They are all short classes and since I'm so far away, I'll be a heck of a lot more likely to go to all of them. I think that's all for this brief update, I'm just praying that I can get all the classes I want. 

 Do you ever feel like you're just in a deep hole and you can't get out so you start to panic. Then, suddenly, the hole starts to fill with water or dirt, you can't tell and you're drowning and being crushed to death at the same time....
I don't know what do to, I'm so stressed about money and school and feel like I have no time, I feel like I'm letting my friends down, my family down, Shannon down. 
I just want out of this...I want to stop feeling this way. 

 

 

Dear Shannon
I don't really know how to tell you this, but The mafia wants you. I think I realized it when I quoted Santa outside of Chicago and I saw you sit on my best friend. I'm sure you're cowardly enough to understand How awful I've felt. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your photo as a memory. You should also know that I Told my psychiatrist about The incarnation as an eskimo.
Good luck on your short-term leave from jail,
-Alexis-


( How to letter )

I'M SEEING EDDIE IZZARD ON JULY 29TH AT 8PM!!! AHHH!!!!

Isn't the Tin Man living in a house made out of tin kind of like a person living in a house made of peopleO_O O_O O_o


Also, SOYLENT GREEN IS PEOPLE!!!

1. Pick 15 of your favourite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Fill in the film title once it's guessed.
5. DON'T CHEAT! google etc.

I know it's hard, I like unusual movies

1. You print that in the New York Times, Guy....And I'm gonna kill myself.

2. Kids can be the most ruthless people in the world. They can just be supernaturally cruel.---BANG BANG YOU'RE DEAD

3. Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
---GIRL, INTERUPTED

4. Everything's going to change now, isn't it?
---HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE

5. The Greatest Thing You'll Ever Learn, is just to Love and Be Loved in Return
---MOULIN ROUGE

6. How do you tell a child that she was born to be hurt?

7. I'm a homosexual! I'm a homosexual! I'm a homosexual! Oh my god... they were right. I'm a homo!!
---BUT I'M A CHEERLEADER

8. Nothing's lost forever. In this world, there's a kind of painful progress. Longing for what we've left behind, and dreaming ahead. At least I think that's so.
---ANGELS IN AMERICA

9. My, people come and go so quickly here!

10. I'm madly in love with you and it's not because of your brains or your personality.

11. Is there anybody gonna listen to my story?
---ACROSS THE UNIVERSE

12. The Lily means I dare you to love me...
---IMAGINE ME AND YOU

13. I wish I knew how to quit you...
---BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN


14. Do I still Love you? Absolutely. There is not a doubt in my mind. Through all my mind, my ego... I was always faithful in my Love for you. That I made you doubt it, that is the great mistake of a Life full of mistakes. The truth doesn't set us free, Robin. I can tell you I Love you as many times as you can stand to hear it and all that does, the only thing, is remind us... that Love is not enough. Not even close

15. Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes. You must look into that storm and shout as you did in Rome. Do your worst, for I will do mine! Then the fates will know you as we know you

Good Luck!

So I am a brand new memeber of the Wendy's staff in Loveland....which is cool enough I guess. The only problem is I have no idea where my birth certificate or social security card is. That's what happens when you move five times in roughly two or three years. Things get lost. O_o I'm hoping my dad has it and can bring it to me today as I need it by tomorrow to show that I am indeed a US citizen, Thank you George Bush.
If not....I guess I don't get the job. Neat.
On another front, the duplex that Shannon and I want to rent it seems will be finished much sooner than they originally ball parked. Which means that we might need to move in there as early as February. What's the problem? $Money$.
If I write to my uncle Tim asking for my tuition money early I should have enough to put down first and last months rent, fix my car, and still have enough to pay for what FAFSA doesn't cover on my tuition. However....It's January. There is a very strong chance he won't want to send the money out this early because he will be suspicious of my intentions. I thank my three cousins who blew their money on drugs instead of school/living necessities for that.
So, needless to say, I am very stressed out. If I can get my birth certificate and write to my uncle, it will all be peachey. If not....*walks toward the gallows with my head hung in shame*
I'm off to go clean so that I at least feel as if I'm doing something.

What a week, what a week. I never did find my missing wallet so that stresses me out quite a bit. I ordered a new ATM and credit card but that still leaves me with a missing license, insurance card, etc. Ah well...I'm sure something will work out.
I'm currently trying to figure out why my normal 60-70 dollar phone bill ballooned to 95 dollars this round. Especially since early this month I already made a payment on it which apparently overdrafted my account. Fun fun...
I think I did okay on finals but my grades aren't as good as I would have liked them to be. :( Typical...
I start work on Friday though so hopefully having some sort of income will help alliviate my stress. At least a little bit.

Other than financial and academic woes, life is going good. Shannon and I finally have a mattress to sleep on which is an improvement over the air mattress/floor/couch. We'll be painting our loft this week and will *hopefully* be moved in there by Christmas. Then it's just a few short months until we move out on our own!

That's about it, I hope everyone is safe and happy and enjoys their holiday season.

Fuck, fuck, fuckity fuck. I fucking hate money

Be warned, I have yet another angry rant in store. I've been doing those a lot lately apparently. O_o This one was inspired by seeing Across the Universe. The civil rights movement/anti-war movement in the Sixties actually meant something...Why was that, you ask? Because that generation did something about what was going on.

A message and a rage to my generation:

We are drowning in our own apathy and self-created ignorance. We are a generation that has a world of knowledge at our finger tips and yet do nothing with it. We claim to be "oh so angry" about the world today and yet we do NOTHING. Our generation is one of unbridled and unconcentrated anger. People blame the media, tv shows, computer games, parents, etc, for how violent our generation is but that's bullshit. We are violent because all of our angry isn't being concentrated to the real source of pain and destruction so we turn it in on ourselves.
We live in a time that is still racist, sexist, biggoted, homophobic, and religiously prejudiced. All of these things need to be changed. We need to stand up in one voice and tell the world No. We need to let go of our own selfish motives and come together as one. We need to let go of our *hatred* and do something about the world. Let go of your apathy and ignorance, they will not save you forever. Another revolution needs to take place. Am I calling for war? No. I'm calling for a total revamping of what society claims to be truths. I'm calling for equality. I'm calling for another sixties, this time with technology and knowledge on our side. This time, uninhibited by drug abuse. This time we will not be the cause of our own demise. The eighties taught us how to be greedy and lust for our own self fulfillment. We will get no where in the world if we just look out for ourselves. We need to look at our fellow human beings and embrace them as kin. We need to do away with stereotypes and prejudices. We need to embrace those of all races, genders, sexualities, and religion. We need to voice together our injustices. We need to stop tearing others down. Let go of your old grudges and form new unions.
We need to be one, a revolutionary new union.

That sounded a lot better when I was forming it in my head. Hopefully it's articulate and inspired you at least a little bit. In my head I had this whole slam poetry thing going on but unfortunately I sort of lost it after I ate lunch. The main point of my rage is that we are far too apathetic and lazy. We are a generation of anger and apathy which is a dangerous and potentially deadly combination.

I. Don't. Want. To. Write. This. Paper. Blah.

I just spent my entire Stats class playing with Play Doh instead of paying attention.

420 in the morning. Almost two hundred pages in. Not tired. I rock

I just spent about the last hour and a half looking at Harry Potter related icons/tshirts/banners and have gotten myself once again ungodly excited for the movie and the book. Right now, I'm focusing more of my excitement on the movie because it's closer and frankly, I don't think I can comprehend the end of the series. After the seventh book my life will (have no meaning) be a little less exciting.
I'm seeing the fifth movie in IMAX...AT MIDNIGHT!! Can you even comprehend how exciting that is for me? To make matters even more exciting, the last twenty minutes are in 3D. I just hope that my hilarious dream of Gary Oldman falling backwards toward the camera in 3D will come true. Probably not, but if it does, I am prepared to laugh my ass off.
As for the seventh book, ZOMG!! I'm so excited and bagggijiwjfijiejfiwjfijiejifjiwjeirj1^TM.

That is all for tonight. I tip my hat to you all and bid you adieu

So I can't get my tattoo until next tuesday but once I get it I will post pics

Oo, I think I'm getting a tattoo today!

Well, there was a mechanical error on my flight so now I don't leave until this evening. Ha ha, nothing ever goes my way, does it?

This Wednesday, April 18th, marks the 11th annual Day of Silence. The Day of Silence is when youth across America are deliberately silent in order to echo the silence caused by harrassment, prejudice, and discrimination. I urge you all to remain silent on Wednesday and participate in this movement. You don't have to be LGBT yourself to participate, just an ally.
A note should be carried around with you to explain why you are silent:

Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced be lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harrassment, prejudice, and discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward fighting these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today.

Ha ha I may be on the national news. More later